It's been 14 years. And that gut punch still hits me regularly. She was only 17.
This is a good representation. It just feels like there is this huge gulf of pain inside. I had an amazing counselor who told me that it would never go away, I will just get better at carrying the weight of it. She was right.
But some days, someone will say something or I will come across a picture or I will hear a song and it overwhelms me. Again.
It's okay to learn to live with constant grief. I have other children, grandchildren, friends and family who I also love. But it's okay to rage against it sometimes too, because it hurts and still feels so unfair.
Lost my son at 24 on 1/19/20, to bile duct cancer. About a year from first diagnosis to death in hospice.
For me it has been a rusty pitchfork through the torso. All I have managed to do is get better at moving around and not hitting the pitchfork on things.
CliodhnasSong on November 7th, 2021 at 08:33 UTC »
It's been 14 years. And that gut punch still hits me regularly. She was only 17.
This is a good representation. It just feels like there is this huge gulf of pain inside. I had an amazing counselor who told me that it would never go away, I will just get better at carrying the weight of it. She was right.
But some days, someone will say something or I will come across a picture or I will hear a song and it overwhelms me. Again.
It's okay to learn to live with constant grief. I have other children, grandchildren, friends and family who I also love. But it's okay to rage against it sometimes too, because it hurts and still feels so unfair.
What a beautiful and tragic piece of art.
GloomyImagination365 on November 7th, 2021 at 12:54 UTC »
This is accurate, especially missing the lungs, as I find it hard to breathe when I think of my son whom I lost 3 years ago on 11/08/18.
big_nipple_gong on November 7th, 2021 at 14:28 UTC »
Lost my son at 24 on 1/19/20, to bile duct cancer. About a year from first diagnosis to death in hospice.
For me it has been a rusty pitchfork through the torso. All I have managed to do is get better at moving around and not hitting the pitchfork on things.