This is what happened to me as well. The bullet missed my head by an inch after I misfired as I was getting into the tub.... Gun smoke on the tip of my nose and life changed after that. Not immediately, but steadily and gradually. I'm grateful today that I missed.
About 14 years ago I was suicidal and decided I was done. Just done. I set a date to end my life (I wanted to get my affairs in order first).
One night I was at the college campus late and saw a poster for theatre department auditions. I thought I'd satisfy my curiosity and check it out while I still had the chance. I sat in the back row while theatre students auditioned and eventually the director saw me sitting there and handed me a script and asked me to go up. I went onstage and auditioned. I remember thinking I had nothing to lose cause I was going to be dead soon anyways.
They cast me. I couldn't believe it! I accepted the role as "one last fun thing to do before I die".
The premiere of the play was post-poned for weeks and eventually months due to the college theatre getting flooded and requiring serious repair. This delay kept me alive longer than I intended.
During that delay I developed friendships with my cast-mates and found joy again. I took up an acting class and loved every minute of it.
Eventually, I didn't want to die anymore. Instead I wanted to keep living so I could have more fun experiences and be in more plays.
OPs post reminded me of this because when I had given up I decided to just "go do whatever made me happy instead of worrying about what other people thought". And that saved me too.
![image showing [Image] I found this to be absolutely motivating.](af909108-f375-5fb3-abca-9858f5ef9411.jpg)
dinamiite on October 6th, 2017 at 04:08 UTC »
always try to be a better person than the one you were yesterday.
bettysgonemad on October 6th, 2017 at 05:27 UTC »
This is what happened to me as well. The bullet missed my head by an inch after I misfired as I was getting into the tub.... Gun smoke on the tip of my nose and life changed after that. Not immediately, but steadily and gradually. I'm grateful today that I missed.
secndchancethrowaway on October 6th, 2017 at 07:31 UTC »
About 14 years ago I was suicidal and decided I was done. Just done. I set a date to end my life (I wanted to get my affairs in order first).
One night I was at the college campus late and saw a poster for theatre department auditions. I thought I'd satisfy my curiosity and check it out while I still had the chance. I sat in the back row while theatre students auditioned and eventually the director saw me sitting there and handed me a script and asked me to go up. I went onstage and auditioned. I remember thinking I had nothing to lose cause I was going to be dead soon anyways.
They cast me. I couldn't believe it! I accepted the role as "one last fun thing to do before I die".
The premiere of the play was post-poned for weeks and eventually months due to the college theatre getting flooded and requiring serious repair. This delay kept me alive longer than I intended.
During that delay I developed friendships with my cast-mates and found joy again. I took up an acting class and loved every minute of it.
Eventually, I didn't want to die anymore. Instead I wanted to keep living so I could have more fun experiences and be in more plays.
OPs post reminded me of this because when I had given up I decided to just "go do whatever made me happy instead of worrying about what other people thought". And that saved me too.